im really so beaten now.

felt flat again.

it happened during this time 2 years ago.

now it's worst.

last day of official class. not including the exams and remaining presentation in the next 2 weeks

in strategy class now. my last 1.5 classs. hahahs. 0.5 jap later

lately, very pissed off with some of my groupmates. sel-fish fish mongers. cant be bothered with them any further.

hmmmmms... any feelings or thoughts from studying in smu for 4 years?

• grown mature/older. hahahs. both age and thinking~! =P
• better vetting skills
• hahaha.. crappier
• developed those trendy panda eyes
• worked like a robot who can function (whether with a conscious mind is another matter) without sleep
• broke my jc record in a totally different manner of which jc i slept consecutively without waking for > 27h, in uni i stayed 'awake' for more than 48h. wow
• made some great friends who also stayed with me throughout all my cui-ed courses
• practised numerous public speaking.. during ppt.. and speak like a bullet train
• understood what is OT. stayed in school till late night for projects
• understood relationship btw service quality and the fees you pay. look at the air-con n escalator plus lifts in smu~ facilities complaints are always taken care of. usually at least
• met some great pretenders who gives me a free introducion of what is society. yuckys eh
• experience 1st hand how important networking is. you need a rich father or uncle to excel for your projects
• survival skills to arrive on time and in a piece. yeahs. how to squeeze into a fully packed train like a sardine without being squashed. alrights, it takes skills n experience, kays
• not to develop expectations of those you 'ought to respect'. profs are humans too. they do gossip, suck up to higher authorities and backstab as well. as recounted by 1 prof!! will miss the ebc prof. so kawaii!
• shucks. most items on list are negative? come on, didnt you learn? things should be examined from all possible persepectives. these are all skills~~ heeee...
• oh ya. my typing skill are much better after these 4 years. im so much more tech -savvy than before. hahaha.. relatively better.. heee...

lallalalala... sums up my 4 years? nopes!!! sure there are much more stuff, good or bad~ doesnt really matter. but smu does helped to mould who i am today and indeed does taught me lots! heeee.. there's no need to thank smu! cos i paid for it!!! hahahas

oh, im more pro shopping now. hhahas. but i still only shop when necessary. =P

guess so far, this is one of the most lively post? last day of school. soon. after 18th april. new phase of life. then july. officially new phase of life. eeeyers. in self denial.

hhahas. btw, realised that i lost my resume and cover letters. all records of job applications too. shucks. is it indicative that im stuck? hmmmmmms... prophecy?

oh ya..
forgot to recommend my latest fav song

"a love story" by Gavy NJ

enjoy~

i wonder...
if anyone reads this blog...
tho i know some people do know of its existence..

pretty busy nowadays. hardly sleep.
but mood? calm.. not really as stress as usual.
weird hows one mentality can affect one's emotions.
really just as if we can psych ourselves.

but i thought someone said that emotions cant really be controlled.
hmmmmms....

in a terrible mood today.
first fear during the exam. almost teared. almost.
but i pulled myself back.
meanwhile. the head throb badly thoughout.
after, i was in a state of daze and saddness till now.
how horrible.
the last time i got such kinda feelings. the result aint pretty.
now the feelin' is definitely more intense.
daze. i really feel like a piece of abandoned rock.
not even a lovely stone. a rock.
ugly.

fever. =(

how many sems.
its always this time of the term.

felt guilty.
ought to be mugging i guess.
yet. here i am, changing blog skin.

many are using wordpress now.
what am i doing with blogspot.

where is my tagboard.
decided to shelve it aside.
at least for the time being.

so many little issues everyday.
thats life. i guess.